Delima

Here I am writing in the land of no comments again...but oh well, it it kinda like therapy. Anyway... I worked fro Crawford County EMS for 13 years. My career had many ups and downs. I made several good friends and a few not so good ones. More good than not. I made a difference in the lives of several people while working and I feel good about that. I believe that I am good at being a medic. I still love doing it. Now I work for AMR ambulance in Linn County Kansas. I love it there too. I have made some new friends over the past 9 months and have enjoyed doing what I do there as well. There is now a supervisory position open in Crawford County. I had applied for this job twice before for various reasons. I was passed up because I did not "sell myself" enough. My downfall being that my beliefs would make that difficult. You see, I don't believe in self promotion, I think one should be promoted based on their accomplishments and performance. In the world of reality though, you have to be able to sell yourself so to speak, if you want to move up in a company.
I have owned and operated my own successful business for over 10 years and know full well how to talk to people and also how to motivate them. I am not afraid to be harsh when I need to be, but I like to treat people the way I would like to be treated. I love my current job, but feel that I can make a difference in a supervisory role here. Therein lies my problem. What should I do? I am torn between 2 places.
Here is the breakdown: Pros and cons
Linn Co. AMR
Pros - Great schedule 2 days on 4 days off, no call back (nobody calling you when you are off). Decent pay for the region, low call volume, laid back work environment.
Cons-$350 a month for insurance, $120 a month in gas to travel to work and back. Unknown future with the company. Contract is up in 2 years. Plenty of political back biting. Little or no chance for advancement or pay increases.
CCEMS-
Pros- Familiar system, I know people well, Decent pay (for supervisors). Having the ability to make things better, low travel expense. Fixed station, free insurance for the whole family, better insurance as well, KEEPERS retirement (which i paid into for 13 years). Computer documentation, not long form hand written.
Cons- Backstabbing can be bad, way busier, many more calls. Frequent forced overtime if on call. Having to carry a beeper everywhere.

You can see how deciding what to do would be hard. I write this only as a way to work it out in my mind. I still am praying for wisdom, seeking a multitude of council and thinking hard. What to do, do I apply and see what happens? Do I stay where I am and hope to have a job in 2 years if AMR pulls out of the area? Hmmm... Any feedback would be appreciated. If you have made it this far in reading this post, you are truly devoted. Thanks. DJ